How does a person become transgender?

So at some point my life starting malfunctioning, and it was always the fu**ng male role pattern s or expectations society places on my alleged (outwardly) masculinity. My marriage failed - my wife said “I am not a lesbian”. That was kinda a big clue. I was very tough and tall and muscled and dominantin m any areas. i had a really huge dick. But I couldn’t fuck if my life depended on it. I just wanted to cuddle and shmooze and talk and I was so absurdly, intensely bottom and passive. I wanted to do stuff with girls penises. I wanted to feel them inside me. I wanted them to take charge. I wanted to be cared for and protected by strong dominant women. So look at me at the time, I could benchpress 90 kilo, 3 martial arts black belts, sort of, 188cm tall. Always dressed in leather pants and longcoat.

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Neo : Why?

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If I would have transitioned back in the last century at a much younger age, would I have enjoyed a normal life as a nominally (optically) normal female?

I am a b**tch.

I live this and finally now I look at my life and I say, “yeah I can do this”. Shit works. I am still a mental case, and quite dangerous to bad people around me, and I have a big mouth on me, and I brag wayyy too much - but I am slut and I love it.

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Trinity : Because you have been down there, Neo. You know that road.

So, a 100% rock solid diagnosis in 2014, hormones and testosterone inhibitors in 2015. Crazy falling in love with the most beautiful creature I could imagine (lucky me, a total sociopath) in 2014–15, crazy adventures. I am still 188 cm tall, so my identity may be feminine, I can still kick the ass out of 90% of the male population. And occasionally I do. So, essentially still a bi**h.

But - full gender reassignment in 2016. no more dick & balls, a vagina. Wild crazy parties like Wasteland since 2014. I learned dancing. And to my surprise I realize my life before all this was

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So if you doubt me, I can only vouch for one thing. If I was transported back in time, and I was me at age 15 - I’d purposefully ‘transition’ come hell and high water and I would obliterate who would stand in my way in a manner so ruthless you can scarcely imagine.

But I found my way. I wonder, how many versions of me also made that choice but a lot sooner, and howm many of those who didn’t are still alive? These questions sometimes haunt me at night.

H A P P Y

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It’s really weird. I started my transition well before the current relative increase in cases. I had my surgery at a relatively higher age. I looked at my feelings on the matter, I tried secondguessing my urges, I tried asking myself whether it is all just me being a pervert (I actually am quite sexually depraved, so there’s that) or maybe it’s all trauma.

I am no lady.

I am a woman.

Why in my 60s do I have a strong desire to suck cock and swallow?

But I ever ever considered sex with guys. It was just yuck. I didn’t want to do male on male gay sex stuff. I am not into gays. I am into women. Or In was until I transitioned. After my transition, I really dig both.

This extended in literally every aspect opf my life, even though outwardly I was an unattractive, very awkward and alienated, chaotic male specimen. If In tried maleness, in whatever aspect of my life, it was always absurd, felt fake (in myself and others), grated on my consciousness, etc. I tried actually quite hard - martial arts, bodybuilding, quite raw and masculine career choices, cerebral masculine studies, excessively male roles. These were all consistently absurd to myself and others.

However, in retrospect I always chose the female role everywhere in games, in roleplaying games, everywhere. I was just blissfully happy everytime I did. But I didn’t want this in everyday life. I couldn’t make myself believe I could do this. I assumed I would fail at it, it would be absurd. Of course in secret I did experiment with crossdressing and even minor absolutely nonsexual gestures in this area felt acutely euphoric, liberating. So pretty early in my youth, around the 1990s I just told everyone I had a female or feminine ‘Operating System’ in my otherwise quite male body. People looked at me, though about it for a second and almost everyonme agreed that was a total bi**h most of the time, so yeah - female. It made so much sense to everyone. Everything I did suddenly made sense to these people. yep. Me, a crucial software functionality was female on the inside of my differenty outwardliness. Yep. Nobody disagreed.

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before any of this and to my surprise agaim I am naturally

Not sure. For me the voyage was worth it, largely I now find myself I made it over the ocean, to the promised new continent and I do fu**ing well on this side of the planet. So again, am I a transwomen? How I know?

But the sex. Holy shit, I was reborn.

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So, at the VUMC here in Amsterdam they did the diagnostic pathway and waved me through with extreme confidence. Textbook case, all maxed out on ‘late transitioning’ trans. I didn’t even try - all I wanted was endrocrynological work, “and I’ll find my own way”. I didnt want surgery. I just decided I would live in this new matrix, and not let anyone ever superimpose anything on me ever again. I didn’t call myself trans or transgender or transvestite or drag queen or transgender or transsexual. I didn’t hang out with the scene. I just did what I did, intuitively, unsupervised, driven my feral bestial instinct. I knew what I wanted and homed in on it and everyone that got in my way I crushed like a bug.

I am pretty solid on rejecting any such explanations, and I never had any regrets. I also never was overwhelmingly big on traditional “dysphoria”, but I sure as hell was very problematic in my sexuality. I was married to a relatively speaking knockout attractive wife. I did in fact had quite some sex with her.

And I no longer play the “approval” game.

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It imploded catastrophically around 2010. I spent some time in Washington DC and a guy there helped me a LOT. I stayed with a most inspiring couple - Dan and Alison Massey, two luminar in trans related topics and I was discovering the functional aspects of my actual operating system. I discovered the hidden apps in my memory and I ripped loose.

This is me.

Short answer- each ‘alleged’ or ‘card carrying” transgender has his or her (or their, whatever) own story. Mine is, I am what I am, and it has a “sort of” vagina, tits and I fu**ing prefer you call me “madam” or “miss”. Guy last month said “sir” and I squeezed my boobs (honk honk) and I said, “I got tits, so please call me miss’ so her laughed his ass off and we had a beer.

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So I never assumed transitioning was a realistic proposal. I saw trans women up until 2000 as some kind of very rare and extreme fringe phenomenon. I deal with quite a lot of them - I did function as a de facto pimp for some ten years. I worked with a trans woman, Leone why ran a BDSM house. I sat down with her, joked around with her first thing she says - “you are trans. You’ll transition within 5–15 years. I see it. I guarantee it.” I absolutely didn’t believe her.

So is this real? Do Im know this is real? Frankly I don’t giove a flying hoot. I don’t mind either way. I dress this way. I fuck like an animal, even at my age. I am in sync with whatever the hell I am. I pass pretty decently and everyone calls me miss, even in eastern european countries. I got these huge t**s now, and it’s awesome.

P U R E H E L L

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So, your question.

Now let’s look at the facts. I should have been 6 or seven and I clearly recall freaking out, to the point of pure panic and crying, over some sexual stuff. I felt gnawingly, overwhelmingly at odds with the male bodies in the depictions (shitty porn magazines) and felt an extreme urge and desire to be the female. I wasn’t. I felt acutely aware I wasn’t female. I found what I saw spectacularly compelling, as long as I contexturalized me in typically female roles.

now, every day.

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You know exactly where it ends. And I know that's not where you want to be.

But I was essentially living the most silly, laughable lie.

Yeah well, YES I am a woman, because being so fu*ng works, that’s why - and the alternative as a GUY didn’t work and trying that road nearly destroyed me.

Hello,hope y'all doin good, i came to Quora to share my strange story , a very weird one , a story when luck smiled at me ,maybe u will enjoy it , let's begin,have fun... A year ago ,I was a real porn addicted(btw I was 18) ,but never had sex before, I don't have a gf I didn't try to find one even ,always thinking to go to find a sex worker but then I just don't , everyday watching different bodies getting fucked and everyday enjoying. One day, I was watching porn, a big ass lady with big boobs ,just after seeing her the image of my female cousin poped in my mind, (let's introduce her : she's 35 years old , very big ass , nice boobs ,not very big but nice,always wearing tight clothes , she's divorced ) and I thought of me fucking her ,I never had sexual desires for her but now I do days went by and when I met her I was so horny ,I couldn't stay with the family cz my penis was clearly erected , I realized this is my first time I get horny for one of my family ,it not illegal in my country.well to make a long story short( if u want details just text me I will tell u 😊),I decided to give her signs that I want to fuck her,finally I decided to have sex and with my cousin , I thought it is the best beggining for me, i started touching her when I came across her in a narrow place , make her feel my hard cock when we hug , I thought it will hard and I will be ashamed but no , I felt nothing and she said nothing , probably she thought it was by mistake,anyways, I decided then to talk with her about sex, waited for her to be alone in a room and talk with her, I confessed everything about me watching porn and addicted..etc,she said it's normal and u are growing up and u must have sex,well at that time I was like whaaat????? Well I didn't control myself and asked her for sex ( horny like I Ve never been before) she said that she will think Abt it ,2 weeka went by then she called me ,telling that she reserved a room in a hotel and we meet tonight ,we met,and bruuhh, sex is great , I mean, I had to find a pirstitue ,what I was waiting for to have such a feeling ????, I will never forget that night, I started kissing her she was kissing hard ,she misses sex so bad , she sucked my dick and swallowed my semen ,I felt I'm in a dream , then when fucked ,her ass was very big and the anus was open ,didn't struggle to get my hard cock inside it , she was obviously missing sex , she was shouting ,fuck me yh fuck me , I go fast after every word until I cum , we did that 3 times , then we went to her pussy , using condoms I fucked her so hard the moans were higher , everything was perfect ,in the end I asked her to lick her body , licked pussy ,ass, boobs,then she sucked my cock until we sleeped ,all I know that she was dirty ,well before even having sex with her I knew she is an open minded woman , and a woman that looks that she donesnt know anything , but she knows everything, but never expected having sex with her ,well she was horny and that helped...but no one of us regretted that sex ever.. We still have sex from time to time ,and I started having sex with sex workers , joining threesomes..etc If u want pics of her text me.

I can descend in an almost silly number of semantic games, or philosophical debates, or endless diatribes on symptomatic gender incongruity or whatever the f**k, but I can only state for the record, fwiw, that the therapeutic process has saved my life and sanity. Salvaged what was left of my life. I should have done this way earlier but my big problem probably is I am too goddamn stubborn, and I wanted to ride it out as a male, for lack of imagination.

So when I came back home in 2011 a trans girl moved into the appartment above me. She was a ten, like spectacular, literally a thin and elfin Marilyn Monroe. Sh gave me her Oestrogen summer 2012, I had palpable breasts formation literally 3 months later. My GP freaked out completely and claimed that me being trans was yet another aburd idea in a long series of me doing and saying absurd things. I had started wearing female clothes, and of course not the most tasteful kind.